Bitter Sweet

Here it is, another birthday, another spin around the planet Earth. Or should I say, Tara. Tara, for those of you who do not know, is the realm that we're currently operating on now, 4th, 5th, and 6th dimension. But nonetheless, I'm still spinning the block, and who would have ever thought that I would raise my consciousness enough to where I would have a 5D state of consciousness.

Here it is, we're in the real 2024 year since March. And needless to say, it has been one roller coaster ride after another since my mom passed back in December. Two days before Christmas, I don't celebrate holidays, but I can remember when I was a kid growing up, it was something that my family did, it was a tradition that they practiced. I can still remember those days.

The only meaning it ever had to me was family and presents. But as I've gotten older and wiser, coming up out of the spells of the matrix, I've learned and observed a lot, a lot of wisdom has been received, many life experiences were had. But I've been experiencing a lot of loss over these past three years. I'm experiencing a loss right now.

Someone that was very significant in my life, my daughter's father. The very first love of my life. He's recently passed. And when I found out that he passed. I was on the phone with my daughter while she was next door in the hospice room, right next to his, when the nurse came and told her he was gone.

And I remember seeing the look of horror on her face and sadness. And I remember my heart just sinking down to my stomach. I didn't really fully....sigh. It's like a delayed reaction. It was like I knew he was dying. I knew he was in hospice, but it was when that nurse came in and told her that he was gone that reality slapped me right across my face.

I've been having a lot of bittersweet moments this year. From coming to the self realization, that my mom is gone. My brother's gone. He passed to two years before she did. And now my daughter's father. Hell I even lost six of my cosmic family members, I really loved and cherished like actual family to me.

They were my soul tribe. And they really are my children but they chose to go down a darker path. Victims of their own unhealed state of mind. I was left helpless to do anything else for them but to let them go and honor their choices.

I'm going to tell you a story. Walking on this journey of enlightenment. Is a journey of accountability, is a journey where you experience loss on so many different levels. I've lost a lot these last several years. But this death that just took place with my child's father....

Really put me in a position where I wasn't allowed to be busy. I wasn't allowed to, you know, try to take my mind off things. This death right here forced me to sit down and process my feelings of everything that's happened, and we're in Mercury retrograde. So Mercury retrograde also forces you to sit down and reflect on your life. And that's exactly what I've been doing. So much time has passed. So many things have happened.

Being on this journey is bittersweet, and it takes a certain type of caliber of person, a person who is seriously actively healing to persevere through these life long tests. Let me tell you something. The path to enlightenment is a life of accountability and great responsibility.

The path of enlightenment requires a lot of you. It requires you to persevere. Sometimes even when you feel like you can't. To continue to elevate, it can be very hard and challenging.

I learned over a period of time, how to balance out the periods of happiness and sadness, but it's a bittersweet journey. I just needed to vent and get my thoughts out. You never know what somebody is going through. Thank you for listening.

Isis